"Is she dominant?"
"C has a strong personality. She rides her own Harley-is very butch. I've tried to get her to dominate me physically. She is hesitant. She can't bring her self to actually cause pain. She's tried to spank me but can't actually proceed to any level of pain. The real issue is that even if she could, there's no control-no danger-no fear-I can control her. It just doesn't work."
"So even me mentoring her would not solve the problem."
"No. I can't see that it would."
"Do you mind if I talk with her?"
"Um, no...as long as I'm part of the conversation. She's a Dyke-you're in many ways the epitome
of many of the things she finds, I guess you could say, unsettling for her as a woman. You also have to understand that you're threatening to her. She seeks monogamy-exclusivity and she is perhaps fearful about sharing me with another physically and emotionally and perhaps losing me totally. There is jealousy and fear on her part."
"I need to assuage her fears."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that I don't know what if anything may develop between us. I do not however, strike that, I will not be the cause of the two of you splitting up. I need to tell her that if she tells me, or you tell me, that I need to go away-end our potential relationship, I will."
From there we talk for hours. It is a cold, rainy and windy day and at the end we venture out into a driving rain. The diesel is smoothing out when she pops into the front seat. "Here's my number at work. Call me tomorrow!"
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