V

The next number of posts readers will focus on a bottom named V.

I start with her but not because she was my first bottom. Far from that. She was however the first individual to respond in a manner that combined the openly sexual with the power paradigm. Additionally, my relationship with her ended abruptly, unexpectedly and tragically-in part because of my failure to understand both the nature and impact of her bi polar condition and in part her because of her ability to hide the severity of her illness. Sadly, the last conversation I had with her occurred when she was institutionalized, heavily medicated and guarded by care givers 24/7 because of her attempts at suicide. She was inescably caught in (I cannot convey just how total) a state of hopeless and irreversible despair.

I'm at the endgame-let me digress to the beginning.

I posted earlier that her was response was sexual. She responded by saying my voice, its power and cadence and the fantasies it created in her made her wet. She did not demonstrate a specific fetish or desired activity-only that the thought of being in the total control and power of another person aroused her to the point of orgasm. That single sexual approach drew her to me.

She had left a call back number which I responded to. I connected with her machine and left a message that was lengthy, slow, measured in its cadence and one that reflected aurally, the power and control I would place her in. She had a machine that allowed me to record and replay before actually sending the message. I recorded and re-recorded a number of times until I had it right- a message which instilled even in me a sense of power and control. At the end of this message I told her when I would call again and warned her that if we didn't connect at that time-I would move on to others...